entry 4 : health update
turns out i was right about it being my gallbladder, its really fucked up and pumping out out so much bile into my system over really small triggers by fat and sugar. been trying to contact a gi but all of them are booked out for months even with just video / phone calls to im kind of stuck waiting for a bit. i hope i can get surgery to get this thing removed, i barely fucking eat and its almost been two years of this shit so i just want this thing out of me so i can actually live. i miss being able to travel without getting extremely car sick, i miss being able to do mundane shit without feeling exhausted, i miss being able to work on projects, i miss food, i miss not starving. i cant wait to be able to bake and cook for myself again and actually be able to eat it.
my gallbladder is so broken its pumping out 99% of its bile. im so glad its as broken as it is to be honest, it makes me feel less like a bitch and that actually yeah this is nightmareish to fucking deal with. i just need to talk to a gi so they can hook me up with a surgeon and then talk with a surgeon and get an appointment for the surgery and then finally get it removed. im so fucking close.